Well I've been on my adventure for a little over 2 weeks now and I am thriving.
Even when things have gone sideways, I've somehow managed to handle it with so much patience and less anxiety. I'm actually really proud of myself and the growth I've seen in such a short amount of time.
I think sometimes we really underestimate ourselves. We underestimate how much we can actually do, until we are faced with having to do it. For me, and you can verify this with my siblings (mainly my older sister) I have really grown in ways of learning to problem solve and think for myself. And if you can believe this... I used to be afraid to call and order pizza.
Now I'm taking myself to autozone after work and making sure my car isn't going to be dead when I wake up in the morning. Small things that I used to always rely on the advice of other people for. I'm out here learning how to live without that phone call to my dad to try and figure out what's going on. I do still have my siblings, and I'll call them for a steer in the right direction, but it's usually always solved by my intuition before I even make that phone call.
I know you're probably thinking how silly this seems to you all, but I never really knew how much relying on my dad for that advice in small circumstances such as needing a new battery in my car held me back from my own personal growth. Don't get me confused, I'm still really upset that he's gone and I definitely cannot wait until we are reunited in paradise, but I am also really proud of how much I have grown since losing him and I think he would be proud too.
Work is going really well. I've been exhausted this week because I've had to work 10 hour days due to having off for a holiday, as a traveler I have to meet that 40 hour requirement or I won't get paid for the week so I've been pushing it into over drive trying to still make time for the gym as well a good nights rest so I can get up and do it all again the next am.
It won't be like that next week thank God! Haha Ive found myself drinking coffee at 5pm yday and somehow was still miraculously able to sleep!!
Im going to see my friend Taylor this weekend!! I cannot WAIT! She lives in Houston, so we will be getting brunch and then Im going to see her and her husbands house and meet their pups! 🥰
I don't think I've been as easily accessible on my phone as I used to be. I don't really want to be. There's something so liberating about being here, out on my own, not having to feel obligated to anyone or anything. It's a feeling of freedom I love and cannot really put into words.
I guess my daddy was right. I really am his little adventurer. Im so happy I finally said yes to this journey.
I've always felt like wherever I carry my heart is where I'll find home, which means that home is found wherever I go, and I'm okay with that.
I love you guys,
Until next time
xoxo
Mishako
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